New Frustrations

All right I am having problems with keeping my spirits up for my weight loss right now. I don't know what I am doing wrong anymore. One week of being a "woman" and I am right back where I started. Thankfully I have not touched that 200 pound mark again but this is ridiculous.

I have been at this for months now and all  I have to show for it is several foot/ankle injuries and sweaty clothes. I know I can do this I have done it before..... I mean I was huge my senior year of high school and a in less than a year I went for a size 14 jeans to a size 7, I know I can do this and again right before my wedding I dropped the same weight again. But the last two times it seemed effortless, I didn't even notice that I was losing weight, I didn't noticed until I started to gain it all back.

Why does this time feel so different? I have never been over 200 pounds in my life, I have never had to deal with injuries everyday because of minimal physical activity, I have never dealt with disease, and I HAVE NEVER felt so ashamed of my body the way I do know.

I am a hard time finding the strength in myself to do this anymore. I don't have the support system that I had back in Georgia with my family and 99% of the time I feel alone now. The friends I do have out here has probably never had to deal with weight gain in their lives and are the size of poles. That makes this WORST!!!! I am the biggest marine wife in Monterey county and I can't feel pride for my husband when I look disgusting standing beside him... I don't want to give up but I am tired of this roller coaster.

MY WEIGHT LOSS ROLLER COASTER 

Me at my biggest in High School 

Me after my first year of college

Third year of College

Small Again at my wedding

Me just last Month

Health update

This is nothing more that a update on my health problems that I have been facing for the past year.

I had blood work done in February and to come to find out  my TSH T3 count has spiked to 11.96 (the range for an average person should be between 1.0-2.0) when it was 3.09 in December. What made it even more odd was that my T4 Free count was normal at 0.85.

For those who don't know TSH is the thyroid-stimulating hormone that is tested when checking for thyroid gland problems. TSH is produced when the Hypothalamus releases a thyrotropin-releasing hormone (TRH) in which triggers the pituitary gland to release TSH. TSH causes the thyroid gland to produce two hormones: triiodothyronine (T3) and thyroxine (T4); theses help control the body's metabolism. {more information about thyroid problems can be found on WebMD}

But on a light side of my health I am finally seeing results in my weight, at my doctors appointment in February I was 201, losing weight was slow but it did exist. Now I am 197 and going down. It is still slow but I am finally able to have pride in myself again. I still have a long road ahead of me but I am back on the right road.

Welcome the Holiday Stress...

Talk about a couple of hectic days, I don't know what else could be thrown at me this week. But I pray that God is done challenging me for a while. I know that the holidays bring extra stress but I did not see this in my future...

Wednesday, November 24, 2010
DLI Farsi Graduation

 I would just like to inform anyone who is in college to make sure you know everything possible about student loans and once you finish school make sure ALL contact information is correct.  I was contacted by a very mean debt collector, informing me that I have a debt of over $1,000 for a loan that I apparently was refusing to pay. Trust me if I had known that I had more than one Loan I would have been paying both off every month. I have not been notified by the Loan office by phone, mail, or email to notify me. The first call I get is from a Debt collector (who was the rudest a person can be). I had just enough strength not to cry while I got bullied by someone. I understand that they have a crappy job but rudeness when I am just trying to get an understanding of the situation is just uncalled for. I only asked questions.

Also yesterday I was told that Christopher's Grandmother was being admitted to the hospital. She is 91 and in the hospital for fluid build-up around her lungs, which is causing her feet to swell. She's also got something going on with her liver that is puzzling to her doctor so they're having specialists come in today to help figure it out. I am asking anyone who reads this to please keep her in your prayers.

For anyone keeping up with my blog in the past couple of months knows that I have been dealing with excessive weight gain and the struggle to get it off. I have been working on eating healthier, exercising more, and I came off birth control which I believe was one of the reason I gained in the first place. Well I had a doctors appointment today for a follow up on some recent blood work and it turns out I am still gaining weight. 13 pounds since my last appointment (thats a pound a week). WHAT AM I DOING WRONG??? My thyroid is finally in check but could be better. The best advice my doctor gave was to join a Dance class. I am so frustrated.

At least these Babies keep me going, Looking forward to seeing them in less than a weeks time.

Read my Lips.

I don't believe it!!!! Stupid Wii board says I gained back every pound I lost last week. I can't take it. I thought that I was doing so good. I kept to my diet, I am religiously working out. I should have lost more weight, NOT GAIN!!!!!

I am so frustrated right now I could put a hole in the wall (if only we weren't renting). And on top of that My online logger for weight, inches, and food diary is saying I don't exist any more so I can't see if I at least lost inches. What could have caused me to suck it up so badly this week.

This post may not make any sense but I can not stand how easily I got flustered by this set back. All well better luck next week...

Count Down Update

Alright another week has past and another weigh in has happened, kind of. I was not able to weigh myself this week because my Wii is was stupid so I wasn't able to get an actual weight (Hoping my husband will let be got buy a regular scale so I can avoid this issue every week.) Besides I really think the Wii Board measures me wrong anyways.

Feeling Good to Motivate

Walk 3:14pm, October 14, 2010

Distance: 2.11 miles 

Time: 0:47:50 

Speed: 2.6 mph

** Posted from BiM Active

I have started to track my walks again and will be posting my performance afterwards (above). I hope this will help to keep me motivated. Any feed back would be great. I am not giving up this time not even my Plantar Fasciitis can keep me down. 

Today I feel the need to add a little more information about what Plantar Fasciitis is and how it affects my life.

Plantar fasciitis is irritation and swelling of the thick tissue (Plantar Fascia) that hold up the bones of the bottom of the foot. This Fascia can become inflamed and painful, making it more difficult to walk. The most common complaint is pain in the bottom of the heel. It is usually worst in the morning and may improve throughout the day. By the end of the day the pain may be replaced by a dull aching that improves with rest. Most people complain of increased heel pain after walking for a long period of time. This irritation caused me to completely stop walking for over a month. I could barely walk around my apartment, let alone down the street. But relieving the pain was a simple fix for me thankfully. I bought inserts for my less supportive shoes and Christopher surprised me by buying me a pair of reliable walking shoes. I always try to remember to to my leg stretches and take it slower if I start to feel any pain. This is not something that is not tolerable but I will have it for the rest of my life and if not properly taken care of could lead to surgery and limited mobility.

*** This information was provided by Google Health

New horizons and an update

So I have been falling behind on my blog posts but what can I say... nothing really going on that would produce and fun or interesting blog post from me. But I have been busy and that I am excited about. I started my new job last week and I am absolutely thrilled. I am now a daytime Nanny (AKA babysitter). Nanny sound so much cooler than babysitter to me.

Lily is a wonderful 4 month old little girl who loves to pose for the camera and believes she is more independent than she actually is. As I sit her typing she sleeps with her favorite pink baby doll and dreams of something beautiful.

Let's see what else is going on in my slight if not always boring life. I have once again gained weight but this is the last time I will do it. I have set my mind to a goal and I hope I can keep it. 20 pounds before my husband and I go home for Christmas this year. Think I can do it? I do and believing in myself is one thing I didn't have last time. I am tracking my progress every step of the way and I am determined to get healthy. The last doctors appointment/blood work scared me to much not to. I have never had to be on medication and now I have to take something every morning and I don't like it. My doctor said that I could be come Diabetic which is something I do not want or need.

I want to be as healthy as possible so that when we start our family I am ready and know that I will be fit enough to keep up with a child. SO far I feel stronger and more motivated to get out there and fight my battle with weight. I am not ashamed that I gained the weight but I do want to get it off as quickly (at a healthy pace) as possible.

Finally Got Out

I am Starting at a weight of 186 pounds, (I know I want to Cry) with a goal to lose 5 pounds ever two weeks. Here is my first post.

Walking Challenge Post:

Time: 1:11:23     Distance: 3.00 Mi     Speed: 2.5 mph     Calories burned: 399

I am not very tired after that walk but I am proud of the fact that I was able to complete the first day even if I didn't do it within the given time. Better luck on Wednesday I guess. For getting to know the route and having a friend walk it with me, I feel very accomplished. Oh! This is one of three route that I have planned out for myself so far. I am so excited.

Interested in planning your own routes and starting a Walking challenge go to BIM Active (Bones in Motion). It will help you get started, I know it has me. I am not so afraid to go out walking on my own now.

Weather Frustrations

Okay, Can anyone see? This is what has been outside my window every single morning this week. I was planning on starting my Walking Challenge this week since I am now safely home with my husband, but I fear this crazy fog so called FRESNO!!! Yes, my husband and I named the fog after a city. Long story short we hate Fresno, our first flight out to Monterey we were rerouted to Fresno due to the for storm Monterey had seen in years. WE had a choice to either ride on a bus to Monterey with the rest of the stranded passengers or rent a car. What do you think we did?

Back to my frustrations. I was looking forward to getting a jump start on my weight loss and walking challenge. But NO the weather in Monterey has to Suck basically year round. Hopefully this weather will bend to my will or I am going to let go of my fear and suck it up. I have the motivation to get out the but this weather is blocking me from wanting to walk down the street. I think I might steal one of my husband's reflector belts, maybe that will make be feel better.

WEll thats the end of my rant. Till the next time. Mrs. Orr

Not Fat, Just Happily Married

I will be the first one to admit that I have gained a significant amount of weight since my wedding last September (over 30 pounds). I am not going to say that I am proud of that but I am not surprised by it either. I read somewhere (Cosmo I think) that the average woman will gain up to 30 pounds in their first year of marriage. A lot of factors goes into to this but that would could turn into a whole different Blog. My contributing factors are simple Birth-control, eating the same portions as my husband, slight depression, and limited activity.

I guess the reason I am writing today is because I have realized this has to stop the weight gain before I become unhealthy. So here is the start to my personal weight loss challenge. My plan is to loose the 30+ pounds I have gained and hopefully some extra. And then continue to maintain a healthy weight after that. I am going to aim for 5 pounds every two weeks.

I have no idea how I am going to start this but I am going to and that is all I can do. I believe that a good beginning would be to eat healthy and take baby steps working out. This walking challenge I also found in a Magazine will be a good first baby step to being healthy...

THE WALKING CHALLENGE

Week One

Monday, Wednesday, Friday: Walk 3 miles in 60 minutes.
Tuesday, Thursday: Walk 10 minutes before each meal.

Week Two

Monday, Wednesday, Friday: Walk 2 miles and do a climbing session

Tuesday, Thursday: Walk 4 miles and try to finish in 60 minutes or less

Week Three

Monday, Wednesday, Friday: Walk 3 miles in 45 minutes and add a climbing session

Tuesday, Thursday: Walk 15 minutes in the morning and before dinner, trying to cover a mile each time.

Week Four

Monday, Wednesday, Friday: Walk 4 miles and a climbing session.

Tuesday, Thursday: Walk 2 miles in under 30 minutes.

Climbing Sessions: Outdoor stairs or hills in neighborhood. Work them into walk. After ever 5 to 20 minutes go up and down once. Try for 4 flights of stairs or 4 hills spread out throughout the walk. Stairs at home: hit the stairs at home at the end of your walk. Take them 2 at a time and then come down slowly. Repeat 4 times. No Stairs or hills nearby: Using a curb, step up and down, for about 10 minutes. Lead with your right foot for 5 minutes and then your left for another 5.

Weekend Walks: When the workout plans get sidetracked, just reschedule. Do your Tuesday walk on Saturday and your Friday walk on Sunday. As long as you fit in 5 workouts in a 7-day period, you'll be on your way to a healthy BMI. And those weeks when you stick to the Monday through Friday schedule, push yourself a little more and go for a really long walk or hike. (1 to 2 hours) on Saturday or Sunday. Then give yourself a well-deserved pat on your ever-shrinking backside.